#'hes sooo irrational and annoying'

[jonahmagnus]

Whenever a fandom person mentions disliking a black character I instantly get suspicious. Like oh..... you think that their so much more annoying then all the other characters? Why.....😐

[verfound]

FIC: "Of Kwamis, Soulmates, and Idiots"

(MLB; Lukanette; LBSC Lukanette Month 2024)

@lovebugs-and-snakecharmers is doing a Lukanette Month for September 2024, and we all just kinda tossed some prompts in the disco to compile a list?  We ended up with 71 prompts, so I decided I’d roll some dice to pick a prompt, do a twenty minute (ish, bc we all know sometimes they run away from me) sprint, and try to get some short fics out this month?

Sorry not sorry for the end...

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Prompt 09: New Pet

“You should talk to him.”

Marinette felt her shoulders stiffen – felt her entire body tense – at the tiny voice.  Irrational as it was, because she knew no one else could hear it.  No one else was able to see or hear Tikki except for her – that’s just how kwamis worked.

…well.

Her, and her soulmate.

But she didn’t have a soulmate.  Or…she hadn’t found them.  Yet.  So it was impossible that anyone else currently aboard the Liberty would have heard Tikki’s horrible suggestion.

Talk to him.

Like she could ever do something as crazy as that.

“Shut up,” she hissed under her breath, her eyes still darting up to make sure the band – to make sure he wasn’t listening.  She hunched closer to her legs, bringing her face dangerously close to her sketchbook, and tapped her pencil against the page in irritation.  “You know I can’t.”

“But why?” the little bug asked, zipping out from behind her pigtails to stare unabashedly at the him in question.

…Luka.

Juleka’s older brother.

Lead guitar of Kitty Section.

Super cool, super nice, super hot, super out of her league…

Tikki was frowning as she looked back and forth from Luka to Marinette’s sketchbook.

“You like him, don’t you?” she asked, tilting her little head to the side.  Marinette flailed, sending her sketchbook flying, as she grabbed at the kwami.  Did she have to be so loud?!

“Tikki, shut up!” she cried, her face burning as she pulled her against her chest.  She looked up at the sudden silence on the deck, and she gave a nervous laugh as she waved off the concerned stares.  “S-sorry, guys!  You know how…annoying kwamis are!”

Tikki shouted something rude at her, she was sure, but her hand was covering the little brat’s mouth and it came out a muffled squeak.  Marinette groaned as she pulled her knees back up on the crate and pressed her forehead against them.  Tikki grew suddenly quiet, and Marinette looked up to find…oh.  Oh no.

Luka was standing right in front of her, her discarded sketchbook in hand.

“Your kwami’s a little shit, too, huh?” he chuckled, holding the book out for her.  She swallowed and glanced down at her clenched hands, but Luka wasn’t looking at Tikki.

…of course he wouldn’t be.

He couldn’t see her.

Because he wasn’t…

“More than usual lately,” she sighed, letting Tikki go as she took her book back.  She offered him a shaky smile as he took a seat on the crate beside her.  “Sorry.  She…likes to tease me.”

“Oh, mine lives for that,” he chuckled.  “I don’t think Sass considers a day complete until he’s made my life a living hell.”

She giggled as he grinned at her, and her feet slipped from the edge of the crate back to the deck as she leaned forward.  His smile softened, and that…oh, he had the best smile…

“I’m sure he’s not all that bad,” she said, reaching up to tuck some hair behind her ear.  She looked up at him with a shy smile and prayed her face wasn’t as red as it felt.  “…he’s your kwami, after all.”

“Well, by that logic…someone as sweet as you?  Tikki has to be a saint,” he said.  She wanted to roll her eyes, but Luka had just called her sweet, and she ended up mumbling out some nonsense that might have been a thank you or maybe a shut up you’re cute, but either way she ended up looking back at the deck as her face burned hotter.  After a moment, he nudged he shoulder with his own and nodded towards the sketchbook.  “Sooo…what were you working on?  It must be good – you looked pretty intense.”

Her stomach clenched, remember exactly what – or who – she had been doodling, and she prayed he hadn’t actually seen the very detailed sketch of himself when he had picked the book up.

…any of the very detailed studies she’d done of him over the last few weeks, actually.  Tikki, kill her now…

“N-no, it was…it was nothing,” she said quickly, shaking her head.  “Just…you know.  Doodles.”

“I’d love to see them sometime, if you don’t mind sharing,” he said, leaning a little closer.  “Juleka says you’re crazy talented.”

“She…she said that?” she asked, looking up in surprise.  She hugged her sketchbook to her chest, and his smile…there was something in his eyes, something she couldn’t quite place – something she maybe wasn’t quite ready to place yet – that made her stomach flip pleasantly.  That made her want to show him the sketchbook, or anything he asked for, if only he’d keep looking at her like that.  He nodded, and she looked away as she bit down on her smile.  “That…that was really sweet of her.”

“She can be, sometimes,” he said.  She glanced back up at him, and her breath caught when he winked at her.  “If you’re not related to her.”

A giggle was startled out of her, and he chuckled as he reached over to squeeze her shoulder.  He glanced at something behind her, that strange look passing over his face again, before he stood and waved.

“Th-thanks!” she called as he turned away.  He looked back, and she waved her sketchbook at him.  “For…bringing it back.  Thank you.”

“Anytime, Ma-Ma-Marinette,” he said with a wink.  She rolled her eyes at the nickname, but her face didn’t feel as hot as it had the first time he’d teased her with it.  It felt…familiar, now.  More comfortable.

A tiny giggle by her shoulder had her tensing all over again, and she looked down to find Tikki grinning at her.

“Well,” she said, her eyes sparkling, “at least you talked to him!”

. : .

Later, after the others had headed home for the night and Luka was left ‘cleaning up’ the deck (…which was more of an excuse to sit on the stage, staring up at the stars as he worked on that song that had been stuck in his head since blue, blue eyes and Ma-Ma-Marinettes), Sass decided he apparently hadn’t had enough that day.

…as if seeing that crazy drawing of him in her sketchbook hadn’t been enough.  He had almost dropped the book all over again when he’d picked it up and realized she’d been drawing him the entire time she’d been watching their rehearsal.  When he’d realized she’d been watching him maybe as much as he’d been trying not to watch her.

“You ssstill have not told her,” the little snake hissed softly, settling on the head of his guitar when his playing tapered out.  Luka’s grip tightened on the neck as his eyes narrowed at his kwami.  His long tail was dangling, swishing almost like a cat – and the smirk on his face was definitely too feline for something that was supposed to be a snake.

“Sass…” he said in warning, but Sass just flicked his tongue out at him.  He’d say he was scenting the air, but Luka knew better.  Sass lived to torment him.

“Why haven’t you told her?” he asked, tilting his head to the side.  Luka rolled his eyes and jostled his guitar, just enough to dislodge the little shit.

“You know why,” he sighed, sinking back against the speaker he was using as a backrest.  “She’s not ready yet, buddy.”

“How do you know if you don’t tell her?” Sass pressed.  “Shhhe deserves to know, Luka.  Wouldn’t you both be happier if she did?”

“…she’s not ready yet,” he insisted, shaking his head.  “Her song’s still too…I don’t think she knows what she really wants yet, Sass.  And when I tell her…I want her to want it.  I want her to want me.  Is that too much to ask?”

The kwami’s brow furrowed, as if he didn’t understand – or didn’t believe – him, and Luka sighed as he started picking the familiar notes out again.  Marinette’s song.  The one that had utterly bewitched him from the moment he had first heard it – that had only intensified when she’d waved goodbye that first night and he’d seen the large, violet eyes peeking out from behind her collar.

Sass heaved a longsuffering sigh as he settled on his human’s head.  He flicked his tail against him as he settled in, a clear sign of his annoyance.

“I ssstill sssay you shhhould tell her,” he huffed, and Luka smiled sadly.

“I know, buddy,” he said.  “I will.  Soon.”

. : .

Except it wasn’t just that the kwamis’ humans were soulmates.

The kwamis needed each other, too.

They were linked, in an ancient, mysterious way no one really understood.

They could never really exist peacefully, in harmony, until they were reunited.

…and soon just wasn’t proving to be soon enough.

After another week went by – and then another two – Sass and Tikki had had just about enough.

“She’s just so shy,” Tikki huffed from their hiding place in the basketball hoop.  “She’s so amazing, Sass, but she has no self-confidence!  She’ll never make the first move!”

“I fear Luka won’t, either, if shhhe never does,” Sass sighed.  “He feels shhhe is…not ready.”

He said it with a roll of his eyes, and Tikki pouted as she stared at the two hopeless soulmates dancing around each other below them.

“She’s more ready than he thinks,” she tutted.  “You don’t have to wake up to her kissing her stupid cat pillow and sighing his name.”

Sass snickered, and Tikki tried to pout at him, but it was too easy to return his grin when he looked at her like that.  He was more familiar with things like that than she knew, he was afraid.

“Perhapsss it’sss time we ssstopped leaving it up to them, then?” he suggested, tilting his head as he watched Luka bend to help Marinette pick something up – and then crash his head against hers when their hands brushed and she jerked back.  “Perhapsss they need a little…pushhh?”

“…what do you have in mind?” Tikki asked, turning to him.  He grinned and floated up, winking at her as he made his way below.

“I think it’sss about time I sssee thisss pillow for myssself,” he hummed.  It took barely a moment – the briefest of distractions, provided by Ivan calling for Luka to get back to the stage and neither of them watching too closely – and then Sass was phasing through Marinette’s bag, settling into a pocket he was sure would go unchecked until it was too late.

From her place on the hoop, Tikki just…stared.

She…hadn’t known they could do that?

They could do that???

She had thought they were bound to their humans, that they couldn’t travel too far from them, and yet…well.

If Luka was Marinette’s soulmate, perhaps he was a little bit Tikki’s human, too?

Tikki was still hiding up on the hoop a short while later when Marinette received a call asking her to come home, and she watched anxiously as her human waved goodbye to her friends and ran off the boat.

…as Luka watched her go, a look she would call nothing short of longing on his face.

She sank back against the board and wished for a freshly-baked cookie to chew on.  Oh, she had a bad feeling about this…

[mleprae]

may i have some more details about physical illness baldwin could suffer? exhaustion, unconsciousness, etc. since your post about sarmenti's irrational anger at his illness inspired me quite a lot, and more detail is better here!! he's so stalwart and strong in soul, i want to contrast the worst of his ailment against his unshakeable spirit

I had to write this on a google docs because there was just SO much text that doing it on a tumblr ask lowkey annoyed me. Sorry for any weird formatting issues or missing words!

I ended up writing this bible because I only realized later that you asked for general symptoms, and not ENL ones. Oh, well, I Italicized all the symptoms that are present in both leprosy and ENL, and just in case, I bolded and italicized the symptoms in ENL only.

Here’s the original thing I wrote!

If you are talking about that one post, I was talking about ENL / Type 2 lepra reaction specifically. My biggest mistake was never talking about leprosy reactions too much in-depth here, and it's partially because we don't know much about them! D: Despite being one of the most serious complications, we haven't explored why it exactly happens. (I know I say 'we don't know' alot about leprosy, but it's just because it's really really really hard to study it)

Leprosy reactions are some brief moments that the disease may develop new symptoms or become temporarily worse, we don't know what starts this, just that it's a type of hypersensitivity. (Which is what we call any blown-out-of-proportion immune reactions, allergies and autoimmune diseases are also hypersensitivities) These episodes are usually short (few days) but the longer and serious ones can last a month or two.

If I were to cite every single symptom during this episode + leprosy in general I'd be here forever, there's just so so sooo many!! But since you asked for the worst of the worst, here's the more severe + common ones. (I obviously cannot testify for myself that those are the worst symptoms because well, I probably will never catch leprosy, I'm quoting the ones where have been described as most life-threatening and the ones that are more inconvenient than others.)

The ADHD version: Amyloidosis (high amyloid count) - CKD (Chronic kidney disease)- Heart issues which may lead to heart failure - Fluid buildup in the limbs (especially the legs) Muscle issues- Muscle pain - Muscle weakness, trouble swallowing and chewing (Although it gets worse in ENL)

Bone issues- Severe bone pain, mostly on the longer bones like the tibia. Hip is also common but it’s more characteristic of any disease than leprosy-specific. (There are a lot of bone symptoms of general leprosy, but I don’t think any of them cause pain.)

Skin & nerves

-Painful nodules pop up throughout the entire skin, pressing on them is extremely painful. They may become pustules or necrotize. (Characteristic of ENL) - Nerve pain, usually worse at night time. Others - Overall malaise - Low to high fever, though if we are talking about ENL, it’s probably more to a high fever. High fever can make you delirious and confused. - Stuffy nose, trouble breathing. Something that haunts me is that dying suffocated to your own mucus/snot is not an uncommon death.- Headaches

The hyper fixated autistic version, in which I just yap about some specific details and add my jester x leper headcanons in the end. (just a complement to the ADHD version)

Full body pain We know that ENL is a type of hypersensitivity, which means that any tissue that has the leprosy bacteria in it becomes inflamed. If you’re having ENL, it probably means leprosy has you by the throat at this point, because it does not happen to any other leprosy types in which the bacteria population is small.

So muscles, nerves, eyes, bones, lymph nodes, skin, everything is invaded by millions of cells sending a shitload of chemical warfare. Inflammation is a destructive reaction, it helps you, but it is destructive in nature; Your immune system is not here to protect you, it’s here to destroy invading pathogens and it will do so by any means necessary. (Even killing you!) Not to mention, the body was already severely impaired before the invasion, a lot of people die during their ENL episodes because it just gets that bad, and if they recover, the damage is too severe to be healed.

All of this is extremely overwhelming to the body and to the person, everything gets swollen, pressing on those nerves that are already firing pain signals. I cannot state how excruciatingly painful all of this is. By the day, it can be something from low to mild pain but it becomes worse as the night falls, as it's usual with nerve pain.

So on top of all the pain, you have some muscle weakness. You can’t move or walk properly but laying down is also painful, trying to sleep becomes a challenge, it’s been noted that despite everything, most can only sleep very lightly. (When they can) A little trivia is that thalidomide, a drug originally used to help people sleep, can actually help in managing ENL. It was discovered when a doctor prescribed it to one of his leprosy patients to help him sleep during those episodes, and they discovered his condition improved afterwards, which is pretty neat!

Involving organs and whatnot

Amyloidosis might be like, 99% the reason why leprosy complications are fatal. Most of them will target the internal organs, like the kidneys, heart and the liver. It’s a little misfolded protein usually associated with long-term/chronic infections… and Alzheimer’s.

The protein causes fluid buildup in the limbs but also it can block important arteries to the heart, causing heart failure. (2nd leading cause of death, after suicide) But for the most time, it causes arrhythmia, which as someone who has a type of arrhythmia, it sucks, it does, alot. It hurts like hell, it makes you dizzy, it feels like your heart grows 4x in size and is trying to claw out of you via your throat. And I have the easy type!

Before I go on about anything else, I wanna go about diet, I already answered here about the complications of weight loss and leprosy and the reason behind it. (I do recommend reading it before this part) Amyloidosis causes CKD (chronic kidney failure), filtering the blood is pretty important… A failing kidney means increased blood pressure due to the fluid buildup.

If they don’t have any sort of knowledge on how nutrition works in the Darkest dungeon medical world, it could make things even worse. Salty foods and pork are the worst offenders, salt will increase your blood pressure by disrupting the osmotic balance, pork has too many fat/lipids, which stimulates the adipose tissue (the one responsible for storing fat), which in turns pisses the immune system EVEN more than it already is. (And this is why you’re advised to not eat pork after a tattoo) So that’s 3 strikes to the heart and 2 to poking the nuclear-tempered cells with a short stick.

As a complement to the original post, I forgot to mention why not only Baldwin isn’t eating properly but that he would probably be losing weight faster than he should. This is one of the more ‘gross’ symptoms you can’t lionize in fiction, but something that stuck to me alot was how the urine goes from liquid to a red, foamy thick paste. The kidney is also responsible for taking proteins instead of letting them go to waste, a dysfunctional one will just start discarding proteins, ESSENTIAL proteins, making the urine foamy or thick depending on which proteins are being discarded. (Red being from blood, which is another topic) Even if he was eating properly, his body can’t help but discard the food he needs. There's a wildfire in the distance of people fighting if intestinal leprosy is a thing and that can cause constipation. I’ll leave it up to you, most people do not believe it though.

My overall fandom Thots(™) In a selfish way, I think it’s fair that Sarmenti would be irrationally upset at it, considering everything, Baldwin would probably need to have some around-the-clock care as it happens IRL with ENL reactions (patients are supervised by nurses until the reaction is over and they can go home). I don’t think Sarmenti is caring for him directly though, it would be much much worse if he did; because he would need to help him eat, sleep, move around, change his wraps and clean him if needed. It makes more sense to me that Paracelsus is doing it, and Sarmenti is just there to visit or do some small things if he can, and even then, there’s not much she can do. While some leprosy antibiotics can be made by harvesting and refining things found in nature, even crudely, the ones that are used to manage ENL need high-tec labs and industrial wide scale production for it, there’s not many things to help it either, we didn’t even knew Thalidomide helped leprosy until like…1960? It’s not even recommended.

All that can be done is just wait until the reaction takes its course and doesn’t take his life with it, you can do some pain management to help him sleep better, but other than that? In this situation? I think they can only just make him as comfortable as possible and wait. In Baldwin’s POV, he’s in severe pain and discomfort, stuck in a room warm as possible as to not stir nerve pain. Confused/Delirious from fever and exhausted from lack of sleep, it’s normal for people in these states to just get up and… leave? Because they don’t know what’s going on or where they are, if he can still walk of course. Sarmenti depends on Baldwi emotionally, but it’s almost never the other way around, so this sudden change in routine is pretty upsetting for both of them. I think Baldwin needing him or “avoiding” him are two interesting takes, in one hand, he’s in pain and confused and Sarmenti is the only one who he recognizes to give him comfort but on the other hand, I’d understand why he wouldn’t want him to see him that way, he’s in a pretty bad shape...Well, up to you!

[fenharel-archived]

saskia i haven't read that game informer dav article yet (i will) but i NEED to hear about your mixed emotions 👀

looking at the spoilers we got objectively i think it all sounds very cool and exciting (besides of the gameplay stuff. they can talk about how cool their 3 ability combos are all they want they won't face me, lol). i love that i guessed right with who the evanuris are. i love that we get to hang out in solas' house AGAIN. the little snippet about seeing how isolated and alone he lived there is So sad 😭. i love that it's almost confirmed that he'll take up some advisor role for rook, even if he's kinda forced too lol (its giving johnny in ur head vibes a little bit, no? ooh i bet the haters are going to love this. 💖) love love love the little mention that there seems to be much more reactivity in terms of ur race and background then what im used to from prior dragon age games (no more morrigan explaining lavellan elven lore??? yes please!!!!!!). or that the magic seems to be more present in this game than in the previous titles, something i was 100% waiting for!!!!! ("imagine spires of crystal twining through the branches, palaces floating among the clouds" plLSSSS!!!!!!!)

buuuut. this is where the mixed emotions comes in. pls. dont click on read more if ya'll have normal and sane opinions on trespasser and the veil. i dont wanna embarrass myself and i dont wanna annoy anyone, lol.

sooo uh. idk how to say this without sounding absolutely bonkers but. i used to say that i dont know how i'll be able to stand a new protagonist who will be against solas. i had 10 years to make peace with that. and i thought i did, but since the gameplay reveal and now the new spoilers i....... i.... "rook stopped the ritual and trapped solas in the fade" legit makes me want to throw rotten tomatoes at them. like i KNOW. I KNEW. what was gonna happen. NOTHING so far has surprised me. so i legit cannot tell ya why im being so irrational rn but its the truth, lol. 💀

im not exicted by any of the actual cool implications we got with ~advisor solas whispering in ur head~ spoilers because i legit wanted him to do whatever he wanted to do. i do not want to stop him and i want him to succeed with everything always. KNOWING that was not gonna happen so idk man. idk what to tell ya ksjdfhsjkdhfsjkhf

i think that a level one noob is able to stop 9+ year cooked up plan with the help of a rock like its nothing isnt helping because it feels like cheap disney writing to me. but everything i just said prior still stands. i AM being irrational. BUT I WANT TO BE EXCITED. LIKE IM NOT LYING WHEN I TELL YOU I KNOW THIS ALL SOUNDS FUN. MAYBE THIS IS CONFIRMATION THAT HE'LL SURVIVE THIS GAME TOO. AT THE END OF THE DAY THAT LITERALLY ALL I CARE ABOUT. BUT ARGHHHHHH i will now try to manifest the cool headcanons im seeing. i will manfiest them. i will become sane and normal about this and be excited. i will be SO excited and i will make a rook i like. this is my mission now

[1eos]

Yeah!! Yosuke sucks in an interesting way so it feels almost like he was meant to have an arc where he learns how to not suck so bad even though that's not true (because atlus very obviously agrees with him and his bigotry lol). It's easy to read into him, he's a pretty multifaceted character. Meanwhile akechi is barely around for most of p5 and his confidant is automatic so you don't get to know him organically and has no relationships to be interesting in outside of akira who he is fake to 100% until the last 15 minutes he's on screen but the game is constantly trying to tell you how you're both sooo alike and you're two sides of the same coin rivals when like. I don't know that kid. He just trauma dumped on me about his dead mom while I was at work one time. The fact you don't know adachi like that is the point because his age is a distancing factor to clue the player into the fact souji could have GROWN UP to be like him as a potential end game so the lack of consistent interaction works. It doesn't work if they're the same age unless there's some other external factor keeping them from connecting and there kinda isn't? And he was the character so popular we centered the rerelease around fixing him and ignoring the rest of the phantom thieves??? Make it make sense

ALL OF THISSSSS SPEAK YOUR TRUTH! and the insistence that 'you're both the same' is what really annoyed me flkkfafkff. cuz beyond your fools' power you're not? yeah akechi and the protag have had tough upbringings bc of adults but idk it doesnt really read the same. ironically akechi and ryuji have the more similar backstories what with a fucked up father making their lives miserable. and i loveeeee the two side of the same coin trope and usually persona does it really well. like hellooooooo all of the shadow self/reflection selves in persona 2 was saur fucking good. and they even had villians mirror the protags but they dropped hints! the motifs were similar! it just didnt work w akechi like it worked in persona 4 bc their entrance into the persona power wasn't similar at all. personally i think they shouldve ditched the 'youre the same' to focus on akechi just having an intense irrational jealousy of the protag that you actually get to see building. im talking cut scenes of akechi fucking going rabid alone bc he HATES that you have the same power but everyone is being drawn to the protag despite being a 'criminal' and only just now getting powers etc etc. like you can't not show us a character but also expect us to give a fuck which is a big problem of persona 5. npcs will get barely any time but we're supposed to like. be throwing up and screaming over them girl i don't know that mf!

[natelawtism]

ITS BEEN RAINING SUUUUPER HARD LATELY SOOO that made me think about scenarios of Rownate in the rain!!!

First of all, Rowan LOOOOVES the rain. He loves it so much. He's so willing to get absolutely drenched in rain and stand out for as long as he's allowed to and not care about getting sick or being freezing afterwards. When it's raining, all rational goes away and he runs into it because consequences are for future him

Nate also enjoys the rain! But definitely not in the way Rowan does. He's more of a "rain is nice weather to stay inside" type of guy. To him, he enjoys looking out the window and watching the rain. Hearing the rain hit against his roof is a calming noise! Rain can quiet his mind, if even for a moment. Though, it is QUITE inconvenient to his daily routine.

So, when it starts raining while they're walking back to the dorms, they both have VERY different reactions.

Nate, for one, WOULD'VE had an umbrella ready. He checks the weather regularly, and it said NOTHING about rain. So, he is immediately seeking shelter or speeding up his pace to get to the dorms quicker?

Rowan? You BET he's so hyped. He's SO excited. Rain in California is so hard to experience unless it's fall/winter, and you are SORELY mistaken if you think he's missing out.

He's looking up at the sky SUPER excited, extending out his arms, and having the widest smile on his face ever. Right now? Nate thinks he's absolutely insane. He thinks he's dating a madman. And he's not WRONG because Ro has absolutely no care for how soaked he's going to get.

Nate warns him! He tells him that he's going to get sick and that he needs to stop messing around. That doing this in such cold weather is frankly very stupid and there will definitely be repercussions. But Rowan is so carefree in this moment. His smile is breathtaking and he's throwing caution to the wind...

This doesn't mean that Nate doesn't continue to tell him to stop messing around- he does- but Rowan is too carefree and defiant. Even as Nate begins to walk away from him, Ro follows with a leisurely pace and a skip in his step. Nate is getting pelted by rain while Rowan talks about how beautiful and calming it is. All the while, the downpour is getting more and more intense. The harder it rains, the happier Rowan gets and the more exasperated Nate gets. Rowan's mood keeps Nate from being in a super bad mood, but over everything hes annoyed by the weather and thinks his boyfriend is being very irrational. If only he could stop looking so cute when he's being an idiot.

They return back to the dorms looking like they took a shower in their uniforms, but Rowan is absolutely elated and Nate gets a very soaked kiss on the cheek

[lintwriting]

can we retire that trope where characters are like “I WAS NOT ABUSED” and then make a huge deal of the moment where they admit “… I was abused.”

I feel like the only time I’ve enjoyed it was by simkjrs, where a plot point was that other characters DIDNT believe that he was abused, and they had a whole petty drama about it. He had to put his foot down and air his traumas out for them to believe him. That’s so real. That happens on this damn website every day to survivors of sexual assault.

As for the rest of the fics I’ve read, it makes my skin crawl. Something about how all the other characters are just SO PROUD of the abused character for admitting it. They’re sooo supportive and the abused character just has an irrational hatred towards the word until eventually they accept that that’s what happened to them.

I don’t know why this makes me so uncomfortable. This happens in real life all the time.

Maybe it’s because it doesn’t match my experience at all. I didn’t have the words for what was happening to me, but I knew it was wrong from the beginning. The only thing I didn’t know was whether society would agree or call me a crybaby sensitive snowflake.

Maybe it’s the way people place such emphasis on the word itself. Like somehow physically slapping someone is fine but calling it abuse makes it into something bigger.

It doesn’t. It was wrong either way. Like I said, it was wrong even when I didn’t have the words for it. I wouldn’t have been a crybaby sensitive snowflake whether it was called abuse or not.

I guess my real gripe is the way we use the word abuse. Like it’s magical, mystical, special. It confers the right to righteous anger and trauma, where ‘normal’ actions do not.

Reality is that abuse IS normal. It happens all the time. Many times your friend will casually mention an annoying coworker or a past ex, and you’ll realize… “Wow, my friend inadvertently bullied someone and didn’t even realize. Wow, my friend was neglectful or controlling and didn’t even realize.” I KNOW this has happened because many people have abused me that would have never thought of it that way because I was a weirdo, and they weren’t obligated to be nice to a Debbie downer rude weirdo.

Workplace scandals like that happen all the time, like the Asianguystream drama, and fans take his side because they cannot conceptualize abuse as coming from people they like because it is too mystical, too evil for THEIR life. But it’s not. I guess I’d be more interested in an inversion, where someone is like “I WOULD NEVER ABUSE SOMEONE… I already have, haven’t I?”

Another thing is that it represents an increasing pathologizing of our lives.

It can’t just be annoying, it has to be problematic.

It can’t just be that someone treated you poorly, it has to be that they’re a narcissistic abuser using cluster B personality manipulations.

I want to take these people by the shoulders and shake them. It was bad before you created all these words to pathologize them! What you read as narcissistic, I read as simply abuse! Abuse is bad PERIOD whether or not narcissism was involved. Do you even know what that word means?? Because the field of psychology has famously little research about NPD, so I doubt you’re one of the few people qualified to speak on it!

Not everything is about narcissism, narcissism is just the most evil, most mystical boogeyman thing you can think of so you have a “right” to feeling that self righteous anger and trauma. But like I said before, you had a right to those things even before you added that stupid NPD stigmatizing label to it. That’s not even getting into the fact that Psychology labels are NOT REAL the way people frame them, they’re just observed groupings of symptoms.

Calling someone a narcissist is about as helpful as saying they have a transactional worldview and a struggle with criticism, but the latter two don’t sting quite right, now do they?

THATS BECAUSE “NARCISSIST” HAS BEEN STIGMATIZED, WHICH MAKES YOU PART OF THE PROBLEM WHEN YOU USE IT TO FEEL JUSTIFIED ATTACKING SOMEONE.

God I hate the way we talk about abuse online. That’s not even getting into how ghoulish it is that psychology named someone’s psychological disorder after an insult, “shitty bitch disease” why don’t you call it. Though, maybe people are using narcissist the way it was supposed to be used—it’s clear that the disorder was named to help the people around them and not to help the narcissists themselves.

Finally, why do people bring talk of abuse and therapy speak to cultures where that does not exist? God I hate it when fics set in a fantasy ancient world have these moments the most. “I was… abused.”

First of all, abuse has this stigmatized connotation in part because it’s become inextricably tied to mental health and psychology. A character outside of that context would not normally struggle to say “I was abused” any more than they would struggle to say “My father burned my face off” unless they knew the implications of abuse, such as that abused people are somehow mystically more hurt and righteous than other people. “I wouldn’t want to claim that label when I haven’t earned it”

But like, for instance, do you think a factory worker being abused by his boss is going to have this moment of “… I was abused, wasn’t I?” Where everyone is like soooo supportive and walking on eggshells as he finally claims that label?

NO! He’s going to be like “… That blasted Henry Ford never treated me right.” And it would be just as meaningful as him saying he was abused because that’s what abuse means!

It’s not some mystical thing! At most it’s disillusionment with whatever system taught you to accept the poor treatment. But these fics ironically feel invalidating because it acts like the poor treatment is not actually serious unless a character is diagnosed with CPTSD or calls it specifically “abuse” within the fic. Even when CPTSD is a very modern concept and would’ve likely been called/conceptualized as something different back then.

It reminds me of how people sometimes try to act like a show portrayed a villain in a positive light simply because no character explicitly calls their actions abuse, and then rectify that in fic. But AGAIN, poor treatment was poor treatment regardless of if it’s called abuse. These characters were villains for a reason!

Guess I’m just sad because it’s clear these people don’t feel valid without a diagnosis. They’ve had others call them a crybaby and a snowflake, and now they only feel like their pain is valid with the label, to the point where they HAVE to label other characters to feel valid. Like when people call historical figures gay or trans when ancient cultures had a totally alien understanding of sexuality and gender that gets lost with these labels.

[hoonvrs]

Sunghoons active era is making me feel very delusional, also the fact that half the fandom is joking about his gf. And by the way he isnt even my bias, Jay is

Anyways i want to make friends sooo bad but i just cant get the courage to talk to anyone ☹️ also some people might find it annoying that i keep bugging them (this is basically me ranting cuz my irl friends wouldn't understand me)

it’s true guys. i’m his girl and i’m forcing him to post more cause i’m feeling generous😁

making friends is a bit weird for me too i’m js awkward at first and don’t know how to start comvos😭 i use to have that problem where i felt like i was getting annoying to my friends but you really just need to find the right person who makes you feel comfortable. on the other hand i’d say keep bugging them anyway they have the choice to tell you to stop if they’re getting irritated ( which i doubt it’s usually an irrational fear )

[blorbou]

1 6 10 17 for orv? (<- guy who is refraining from sending the whole list) 🤔

1- the character everyone gets wrong

hmmm id say dokja and yjh... ppl who really love other characters usually understand them pretty well!! KDJ n YJH become a big issue in this fandom because of how fucking popular they are, especially together. yjh for me is mostly because they take away a lot from her character, making her a cardboard cutout ( ex. the grumpy one who is secretly a baby) and i DESPISE how so many ppl think his character is centered around kdj only.there is also this. growing trend of people woobifying him in a way thats like weirdly ableist to me and i fuckingHATE IT SO MUCH!!!!!! Now when it comes to dokja the complaints get very personal because yknow. hes the reader. its ok to project on him how you like. but i find it SO. FUCKING TASTELESS!!!!!! i dont like how hes presented in the manhwa at all for example and i have a grudge against ppl who draw him very conventionally pretty. when people talk about the way he Cares it feels so shallow and it just Annoys tf out of me (sorry for sounding pretentious bc im not explaining myself clearly)....

6- which ship fans are the most annoying?

the answer here is obvious... joongdok...(for reasons i said above + i hate hsy exclusion + yoohankim throuple better) i have a very special hatred for the ones that wanna die on the "non-reversible" side too (but this ones also an irrational opinion that i have). AND SPOD. FUCK. they say that OD is millions of years old which sure. chronologically (which even then. not exactly true!!! if youve read orv youll know that as the oldest dream time flows in a way that cant be exactly "percieved" despite the wall just giving u a close number) + OD IS CANONICALLY. MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY A CHILD. THEY DISCUSS ON WHOS GOING TO HIS PARENT MEET OR WHATEVER. AT SCHOOL!!!!!!! THATS A KID!!!!!!!!! and if u explain that to them they hit you with the "let people ship what they want, its fiction!" which. what the fuck ever....... i always block these ppl for my own sanity.

10- worst part of fanon

i guess... mischaracterization??? i also dislike how everything is sooo centered around kdj & yjh (ITS GETTING BETTER THO!). i dont like when people insist on jhw and hsy are kdj's siblings. or when they make hsy a thirdwheel. complicated stuff going on here hrmmmmm...

17- there should be more of this type of fic/art

i want more fucked up existential fics. need them so bad. urm..more fics without ships, i especially would love to read stuff with more worldbuilding or writing WOS scenes :3 when it comes to art i just need more yhk and soohee art. im fucking desperate actually like if i had money id spend 3/4 on soohee/yhk commissions On my balls

[avo-kat]

i was checking my drafts (for the irrational fear that there will be a bug that suddenly releases all your posts in draft; this has no basis on reality, so dont worry), and found this post from march 1st 2023.

its me working out that im definitely not trans:

dont mind me, im just sitting here and thinking out loud

me: oh im just a regular woman. not straight. but otherwise normal. thats all. :) [pre 2020]

me: hm actually. you know what? hmhm. something is up

me: no its fine. its time. i came out as lesbian to my friends! this is great. i love this. time to buy... lgbt merch. [around 2020]

me: what kind tho... hm.... somehow.... u know? normal rainbow stuff is fine, right?

me: hmmmm im not feeling so good actually??? [around 2021]

me: is that... u know what.... i think i may be.... non-binary? i thought this was only smth for kids but looking into it, huh, i guess so!

me: now i can wear more boy clothes. and walk a bit more masc. thats kinda fun. mens tank top. mens shorts. baseball cap. i feel awesome. hairy legs. hairy armpits. hell yeah!

me: but im just nb im not trans thats not being trans

me: i dont wanna intrude or take away or smth im just nb

me: im fine being the way i am no need to do hrt or anything really

me: and honestly, i dont wanna lose my identity as a queer woman!!! i love being a queer woman! well ok not a woman anymore but im still like, sapphic! that kinda thing!!! im deathly afraid of losing this part of my identity!

me: im super fine w my body and im fine staying this way and also being my agab at my job

me: besides im so cute now and id deffo look ugly as a guy

me: i dont even like guys that much so like come on

me: that one guy is giving me such gender envy. thats just 1 exception tho [around 2022]

me: i prefer he/they but im fine with all pronouns :)

me: i like it when ppl use male words for me. just makes me feel good. nothing else :)

me: (i have no dysphoria cuz im nb im not trans)

me: its cool im fine

me: hmmmmmmmmm

me: mhmhm eeeh

me: im not feeling so great again thats so weird....??? [late 2022/early 2023]

me: mhmhmhmhmh

me: oh look im growing facial hair

me: guess ill shave. thats annoying. kinda cool but annoying

me: oh wow i gotta shave more often huh thats so annoying

me: hm hair is growing more... actually... feels nice touching my hairy face kinda

me: oh well i gotta shave for work, so

me: ach. why does that feel unpleasant?

me: oh well. heh, if i were a man (im not tho), some things would be kinda fun!

me: if i were a guy. that would be fun. like. purely hypothetical, yknow?

me: like if i suddenly got the superpower to change my appearance. that would be sooo cool. just cuz.

me: wouldnt that be fun. it would. it would be so fun.

me: not trans tho

me: def not trans. i feel shaky and queasy just thinking of it. im not

me: just nb. im fine. im fine staying like this. like. im. im fine.

me: like sure im not like super comf

me: thats on me deciding not to be more gnc in public. yeah. it would be such a hassle

me: yeah. what if tho lol. can u imagine. god, telling my boss? no way man that wouldnt fly

me: and id be so ugly. im cute right now. and im not strong. or build. and im too fat. if i were to be a man id wanna be, like, hot, yknow? strong and sharp jawline. if i were to be guy. im not. i wouldnt. im not trans lol

me: lemme write this fanfic real quick. just smth self-indulgent. what if i woke up in the body of the main character of this shounen anime lol. id be a boy lol. like. id be a man. mans body lol. that be fun lol. and what if i managed to fall in love with that male character. wed be so gay together. haha. two guys. such a funny idea

me: .....................

me: like what if i got top surgery.

me: like, sure. a year ago i was scared of losing my boobs. like if i had breast cancer and had to remove them. id look so off. my body would look wrong. boobs are an important visual element.

me: but what if i got top surgery. like. i hate bras. i dont like them being touched much either honestly so i wouldnt really lose anything? it would be more comfy for me day to day. and while sleeping. so, honestly, only upsides?

me: ...what would i need, theoretically. hm. half a year of therapy? oh. yeah. no. im not trans. so. yeah.

me: ....................

me: like, what name would i even pick. idk. well doesnt matter. im not trans.

[new addition, july 2023] me: im trans :D

[fandomwe1rd0]

Hiiiiiiiii! I dunno if you were being sarcastic because I am unable to detect sacarsm in text unless there's a /s or something sooo I decided to take this seriously! I am totally not normal about Rick and Morty and will jump at any chance to talk about it sooooooo here we go!

Basically as we know from Rick's backstory, his wife and child died in front of him, so he had an original Beth and she died, so we know he went to Prime's dimension in hopes that Prime would turn up one day (And to probably use Morty as bait at first if we're being honest) But then oh no he actually starts caring about Morty, it's unclear when, but I theorize it happened somewhere between episode 3 and episode 4 since we get our first protective Rick moment in episode 4, we actually get two so that's cool!

Ok back to what I was talking about, it didn't seem like he cared about the rest of the family that much, he probably holds some level of resentment towards them because they are Prime's family, he only cares about Morty because he spends the most time with him and Morty was the only thing that made him happy after literal years of just pain and self-loathing from killing other versions of himself and started hating himself because as we can see in his flashback after we just see Rick miserable for the majority of the flashback, he mostly smiles when he's around Morty and it even ends with him happily laughing with Morty on their first adventure.

I might be making Rick out to be too much of a dick here but I really can't think of a moment where he cares about the rest of the family in the first 6 episodes, he compliments Beth for her breakfast in the pilot but he only seemed to do that so Jerry would get annoyed, and even then we see in the cold open of the same episode that dude was literally willing to kill everyone besides Morty and Jessica so they can make a new Adam and Eve, and he does sarcastically comforts Jerry after the best day of his life was a simulation, but it seemed to be pretty sarcastic, he legit says "So what if the best day of your life was just a simulation operating at minimum capacity?"

Ok got that out of the way, didn't care about anyone in Prime's family aside from Morty because Morty was the only thing that made him happy after years of just being miserable, so after Rick Potion #9 he only takes Morty with him after he conrenberged Prime's original universe, he knew the rest of the family wasn't affected by the love potion because he says "These serums, they don't work on anyone related to you genetically" so he knew they were still unaffected, but I guess he didn't really care, again probably holding resentment towards them for being Prime's original family even though they have no control over who they are related to, and unlike Morty none of them really made him happy, so he dips and he arrives at the family we know now.

So Morty was the only person he never replaced, he was his first and only Morty (Unless you believe those theories about Morty Prime not being Rick's original Morty in that case I'm sorry) And he is Prime's original grandson, yet we see him sacifice his life for him in "A Rickle In Time" and even healthy Rick says "You never did anything but complain about me being in charge, but if I ever gave you the wheel, we'd be dead in 5 minutes." Basically saying that he would frequently put his life in danger for Morty, Prime's original grandson. Nobody else in this reality is Prime's original family, only Morty, yet he cares about Morty more than anyone, even more than himself. And he doesn't get it, he should hate Morty for being Prime's original grandson, but he doesn't, he geuniely cares about him and loves him and doesn't get why, he considers irrational which is why he considers him caring about Morty an "irrational attachment"

Haha! Bet you didn't expect to get a whole on essay from a simple possibly sarcastic question!

So tldr Morty was the only thing that made him happy and the only member of Prime's family that he cared about, he didn't care about the rest of them due to resenting them for being Prime's family, he doesn't know why he cares about Morty more than anything because he should hate him for being Prime's original grandson but doesn't, which is why he considers it an irrational attachment.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

So toxic rick has the ‘irrational attachments’, and healthy rick doesn’t care about Morty, but he is clearly shown to display affection and care towards Beth and summer in the first act of the episode. The only attachment he sees as irrational is to Morty. I wonder why hmmm

[lovelywritersgarden]

hiii, i hope you are doing well! Can you do a little headcanon thing or a little drabble with Damian Wayne (robin) with a little sibling reader? Thank you!

DAMIAN WAYNE OLDER BROTHER HCS

PAIRING: GN!Reader x Platonic!OlderBro!Damian

SYNOPSIS: Damian gets a younger sibling, chaos ensues

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When Damian heard he wasn’t the only accidental child he was not thrilled.

Kinda pissed u exist tbh. He’s a territorial dude.

and then you toddled into the batcave and all that went out the window.

the minute Bruce said “big brother” you wrapped your arms around his legs.

he is stoic at first kinda frozen in place

ur so small he doesn’t want to hurt you on accident

but you look up at him with a small “hi”

then he loses it, goodbye ‘tough guy’ act

naturally he thinks you need to be immediately trained, so he gives you one of his old katanas

you are literally five so you don’t know wtf to do with it and probably drop it

he still tries, but fails and ultimately watches a disney movie w you

BatBabysitter™

and whenever you cry? alarms go off in his head and he freaks out

he starts frantically looking for danger and then when you’re just tired or hungry or something he is quick to gather his wits and find a solution

but if you scraped your knee or got hurt he gets freakishly protective and patches you up giving a lecture on danger and how safety is important

fights his brothers on who the favorite is

even though he literally gave u a katana like 30 seconds ago

you’re SOOO spoiled when ur with him you get everything you want so fast

u literally just have to give him puppy dog eyes and he is on the floor

“they can’t have another cookie Damian” “but they said please”

people are freaked out when they see how sweet he is with you

like when jason saw you and damian holding hands or him helping you up and being gentle jason was so confused “??? wtf demon spawn”

damian will glare at him and if looks could kill, yeesh

naps with you>>>>>

catch damian always calling dick or alfred when he’s unsure ab something

and whenever you start going to school??? blasphemy

definitely wants to meet all of your teachers

“why is that necessary i can teach them” “no you can’t”

definition of side eye

he pouts when you go to school- and more so when you have a good time

jealousy jealousy

he doesn’t like not seeing you as often

tells you if you were to ever get bullied he wouldn’t hesitate to beat up a child

you’re like :0

patrolling extra to keep gotham as safe as possible for you

if you ever were to be in actual danger, he would get dangerous

like if you got kidnapped or something he would be completely irrational and violent

when he finds out it was some thugs that just want ransom money he beats the ever loving crap out of them

once you get back he is so soft w you

doesn’t want you going back to school again

“they’re fine, damian, school is important” “liar”

eventually gives in but he’s pissed ab it

as you grow up he still thinks of you as a kid

it’s kinda annoying tbh

your first date???

damian is PISSED, and he’s not exactly good at verbally expressing his feelings so instead he GLARES at the person who asked you out or who you asked out

he does not want you dating anyone

“no” “damian, i’m 15” “i know how old you are that means nothing, this is a betrayal”

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A/N: i love Damian sm. he’s such a secret softie. he holds my heart. also first hc post!! thanks for the request, i hope you liked it <3

[yandere-metal-family]

Wait 4 Me?

Tw: Pregnancy, Yandere, Probably bad and I apologize for that

Sebastian was on the high of his life. He felt like he was never going to come down. Sure, his father was still an asshole, but he had a sweet little thing that made his father way more bearable. You made his shit life worth something and he didn't know how he lived his life without you and didn't know how he would handle it if you left.

-- Sebastian had his lips on yours, while you had your fingers tangled in his gelled back hair. He pushed open a door, leading you in. Though before anything could happen between the two of you, a voice spoke up:

"Oh, don't wait for me to leave you two. Just pretend I'm not here," Ches laughed, as Sebastian looked at him annoyed.

"Come on," Sebastian grabbed your arm, but you pulled back against him.

"Oh 'bastie, we can always do it later," you reclaimed, cause Sebastian to groan and roll his eyes. He tangled his hand in his hair messing the style up. He let go of you and headed back out the door, leaving you and Ches.

"Sooo, what you doin later tonight?"

You rolled your eyes, ignoring Ches and his flirting. You grabbed a chair, sitting down, as Ches tried shooting his shoot.

"You know, if your still horny, I can help you."

You laughed, not taking Ches' flirting to heart. You know he didn't genuinely mean it. Or at least to some extent, he wasn't 100% serious. Though, Sebatian didn't like Ches flirting with you.

--

Glam stared at the ceiling, smiling to himself. You laid next to him, fast asleep. He felt ontop of the world and nothing could bring him down, or so he thought. The 'Incident' flashed through his mind, causing Glam to frown. He remembered it so vividly and infuriated him.

He had caught Chive flirting with HIS girl, like some macho man! Chive had your hands inbetween his and his face was so close to yours, looking as if he was going to kiss you. He was whispering to you, and you started to giggle.

"What are you doing, Chive?" Glam asked, irrated.

Chive laughed, letting go of your hands, "Calm down, Sparkles. Your side piece and I are just chatting."

You slapped Chive's arm, causing him to flinch, "Don't call me a side piece!" You jokingly retorted in anger.

Glam could only glare, which caused Chive to smirk. You got up, leaving the two, alone. Once the door was closed, Glam dropped usual smile.

"What the fuck was that?"

Chive looked up at him, before laughing. "Are you mad?"

"Of course not," Glam said, getting defensive.

Chive strung a string on his guitar, saying something Glam didn't like thinking about, "You know, she's not going to wait for you. While you're out doing your gigs, she's going to be here. And she'll probably date someone stable and maybe even get married. You're just a passing phase," He stretched out his hand, doing a jazz hand like thing, "Someone she'll forget. She might think of you, but you'll just be stuck in the past. Good Memories."

Glam slammed his fist against a table near him. "Don't say that."

--

Glam watched as you yet again beat Chive in the poker game. Chive groaned in frustration, before smirking and betting double to nothing. Chive's words echoed in Glam's mind and he was realizing that Chive was right. There was nothing forcing you to stay with him. At any moment, you could just leave and that thought bothered Glam.

"Double Nothing?"

Chive nodded.

"Alright. I'm in."

--

"You're pregnant?"

"No, I'm fucking lying, cause I love having people think I'm pregnant," Y/n rolls her eyes, slapping Glam.

Glam groaned, but slowly realized he was going to be a dad. Maybe you'd finally accept his proposal, even after 7+ years. You held your head, trying not to freak out.

"What do you want to do?" Glam asked, though he already knew what he wanted to do. He had been planning for this ever since that fateful talk with Chive.

"I don't know," you hugged Glam, not knowing how this could possibly happen.

--

"Why the hell aren't you at school with your brother?" You pointed the knife at your son, Dee. He leaned back rolling his eyes.

"They're going on a trip, remember?"

"Yeah, mom. Old age getting to your head?"

"Excuse me?" Glam leaned a hand on your shoulder, stopping you from doing anything more.

"Oh Dee, don't be like that. Your mom has always had a bad memory."

"Yeah- Wait what?" You turned around to Glam, glaring at him, while he chuckled to himself.

Glam kissed your cheek, playfully apologizing, while you swipe him off. Dee cringed at the both of you before getting up and leaving the room.

[timxpy]

NPD SOUL PROPAGANDA IS SUCCESSFULY WORKING ✅✅✅

As a person with npd I always just need to have one (head)canon npd character in any fandom or else I can't really enjoy it. BUT SOUL IS REALLY SO NPD CORE DHJDJSJSDJFJJFJG I JUST CAN'T SAY HOW MUCH I RELATE TO MANY OF MY NPD HEADCANONS OF HIM.

I think that he has like a lot of narcissistic crashes (I don't even know who wouldn't have them if they were stuck with two ABSOLUTELY INSUFFERABLE GUYS). Heart and Mind always arguing, they rarely listen to Soul and that's why all of he's ideals (which are VERY important for any person with npd) just left unheard and ignored. Nobody will show just a little bit of respect to him. Honestly I don't even know when this guy will finally have narcissistic highs (looks like never)... And persons with npd still really often have a lot of bpd traits sooo I guess he even might have both of this disorders...

NPD MIND IS ALSO SO REAL. Honestly I must say that he's probably the most narcissistic one of all three (I don't count Whole, at least for now)... Think about emotions like weakness is really common for npd too (at least I often have episodes with these thoughts and I heard about similar experience from some other people with npd. And also thoughts about that just really sounds like something like npd). But tbh I don't relate to Mind as much as I relate to Soul... Idk why because usually I relate to characters with only npd / characters with npd + aspd (I don't have aspd but I think I have a lot of its traits).

HMMM, ASPD HEART. I didn't think about this idea really much but this sounds like a theme for a big analysis. STRONG AND UNCONVENTIONAL MORAL CODE MY FAVORITEEE PART OF ASPD CHARACTERS. And it just explains like really many things in Heart's behavior so right. I also thought about hpd Heart but I think I was in a little but wrong condition and didn't really analyse him right. Aspd + hpd combo won't sound really wrong for him (honestly I can't remember any headcanon on any character with this disorders combo. Maybe it's me way too forgetful or idk). We actually need more hpd headcanons, people ignore this pd sm.

And if we talk about not only personally disorders but disorders in general... I REALLY THINK THAT SOMEONE OF THEM MIGHT HAVE OCD. And idk it just fits them all right.

Heart looks like really anxious person with more obsessions than compulsions for me. Also if we think about him as a person with aspd i guess obsessions will be often somehow connected to his strong moral code beliefs. If we talk about compulsions... Again, I think he has more obsessions than compulsions, but when he actually have the second things it'll take really long time to complete all this rituals.

If we talk about ocd Mind... I think he'll be really irritated because of obsessions. Not only because they're really messing person's life (I hate my own obsessions so much fr) but because persons with ocd can often say about how their obsessions are irrational (I often think like that too and sometimes people use this to demonize ocd and it's ABSOLUTELY AWFUL URGHHH). Just think about super "rational" guy having disorder with "irrational" symptoms. I think it'll also fit npd headcanon of him, I think sometimes he might even have narc.crashes because of his obsessions.

And we talk about ocd Soul... Again, I just associate him with myself so much and that's why I have an ocd headcanon of him too! I just think he would have a lot of obsessions about his ideals and how they're always ignored. And his compulsions will look really strange to many people (remember never say to person with ocd that their obsessions are strange, NEVER).

I hate this stigma so much. Many people just can't understand that person with disorder don't always do bad thing and that people without disorders can do bad things too! This is so annoying and frustrating sometimes ughhh.

bpd soul propaganda

his relationships with heart and mind are extremely tumultuous. he alternates between encouraging support and harsh criticism. he wants them to be close and loves them, but he's easily frustrated by their conflict and despises them for it.

he seeks a stability that seems impossible for him to achieve. when he doesn't feel like he can be stable, he threatens suicide because it feels like his only option. suicidal and self-destructive behavior is really common in bpd, especially in response to interpersonal distress and instability.

he has very little sense of self. identity isn't something he feels like he has the right to have (since personal separation is contradictory to trying to be Whole), but also, it seems like something he just can't get a grip on even if he tried.

I think that he has extreme attachment issues in concord. he's terrified that things will go wrong again, worried one of them will get hurt or disappear whenever he's not keeping an eye on them. he wants to know exactly where they are and be told when they're leaving because otherwise he'll panic about their absence.

on that note, his fears of hurting them or ruining things when things seem stable are something a lot of people with bpd struggle with. there's this underlying fear that the things "inherently wrong with you" will ruin everything you touch, either because of personal experience or internalized demonization.

if you headcanon Whole as a distinct person, that would be his favorite person. the extreme, almost religious idealization and having your entire sense of self revolving around a person (or really, the perception of perfection you have of a person) is a clear sign of having a favorite person. the abandonment issues would also be the worst with Whole, for obvious reasons

also i think it would be neat if this was a more widespread concept

[imeverywoman420]

Men will marry women who don’t like sex because they’re “pure” then get mad when she sees sex with him as an unpleasant obligation! They have the weirdest fantasy woman in their head who is totally virginal but will be enthusiastic and horny FOR HIM and only him. Her sex drive is completely absent until the moment she meets him because he’s so special! I’m sorry people are annoying to you, it’s literally normal for a woman to have a healthy sexual appetite 😭

Men are sooo insane like they LITERALLY created femininity, which is essentially “sexy stupid baby” and screen their dating partners based on femininity and purity. AND GET MAD WHEN THEIR WIVES ARE IRRATIONAL POUTY INDECISIVE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE CHILDREN THAT DONT WANT TO SLEEP WITH THEM??!

Like bro. You chose this. Women arent vapid, you exclusively date women that dont have personality. Women arent prudes that hate sex, you hate women that like sex. Etc etc.

[lowkey-yyy]

Please tell me more about facial piercings on dazai or what kind of piercings the rest of the cast would have? <3

Okok fuck yeah we going into the piercings ,,

Ok so because I imagine Dazai being similar to me in this sort of way he'd def be impulsive and randomly get them if he felt like it, hes probably covered in mini scars from piercings he did and just removed after because it was annoying or he was bored, mans likely has snake bites still because they were easier to heal (aka he hardly ate in the PM because Mori is an asshole) so he just kind of kept them, he likely had his septum and nostrils done at one point but ripped out the nostril ones because they got annoying when they got caught on stuff. Also def 6 minimum ear piercings...

Kunikida is former little rebel, that man has scars on his ears from many different cartilage piercings and one remaining nose stud that Dazai insisted he keep because it makes him look very handsome. Kunikida thinks that they are unprofessional for the agency so thats why he removed his earrings... he likes Dazai's piercings though and smooching with the snake bites in? He's a very happy boy.

I can definitely imagine Akutagawa has various ear piercings and one lip piercing that Dazai did for him and he was very eager to get to be like him, he refuses to take them out and will punch you if you insult them.

Atsushi , Kyouka and Kenji are lil babies with none, Tanizaki has one though !! Ranpo hates the healing process so would never...

Poe did however and has a ton of scars on his ears from when he had some!

Chuuya is king prissy boy, man has one single nose ring that he thinks is sooo cool and his ears pierced too and brags about how expensive his jewellery was and the quality and everyone does not care, they think his piercings are cute but nothing overly surprising or special- (he thinks hes a baddie but gets scared of the needles anyways)

Gin got her ears done but she hates how they got caught in her long hair so took them out, also her mask would rub against any facial piercings so she never bothered with it

Tachihara has his one done and he says thats enough.

Fukuzawa, he definitely had many ear piercings and small gages at one point, its noticeable if you squint but his baddie years are over and he took them out sadly.

Mori, he's the grandma that HATES piercings, he despised them but never forbade them he just gives his subordinates disappointed looks when they show up with more, Dazai loved exploiting this irrational hate for them.